20.11.06

Withdrawals

I must apologize for not being around here for the last several days. I'm having a hard time with the withdrawal symptoms of Klonopin. My psychiatrist told me that it stays in your system longer than, say, Xanax, but I didn't think it would last this long. Also, I haven't been taking very good care of myself physically for the last couple of weeks i.e. eating things I know I'm allergic to and will make me feel like I've been run over by a truck (which is exactly how I feel today). Wheat products, sugar, and dairy products are going to be my undoing.

Last week when I asked Dad to bring home "some" doughnuts, thinking that he would only get like 3 or 4, he brought home 2 dozen. Ok, who can resist Krispy Kremes? Certainly not I. I think I only ate those while they were here to the detriment of anything else. Suffice it to say, I don't think working in a pastry shoppe is the ideal job for me. And then there's ice cream, which I love in a freaky, unhealthy, stalkerish kind of way. I haven't had a boyfriend in over a year, but I have regualr affairs with Ben and Jerry. Ben and Jerry tend to be a lot less trouble and more comforting over all than a flesh-and-blood boyfriend. Except that they don't like me very much. Isn't that always how it goes? You always pine for the ones who love someone else. STOP: I need to remember that I AM ALLERGIC TO WHEAT AND DAIRY and violently at that. Sugar is also my enemy being that I'm hypoglycemic.

I guess I'm just hard-headed (my parents have always accused me of this) and have to abuse my body to the point where I can't move to get it through my thick head that I CANNOT HAVE THOSE THINGS. EVER. I can't help feeling denied though. Sally went with me the last time I went grocery shopping. I always try to find bread made with something other than wheat, rye,..etc. I keep looking for bread made with something like soy flour. You know, when I first found out that I had Celiac Disease, Tanya suggested that I try Potato Bread. She said that's what she had always eaten when she lived in Germany and had never had white flour bread until she moved here. So, I thought, "What the hell? I'll give it a whirl." Yes, it's wonderful. Of course I love it, it's extremely high in calories. Anything that's bad for me, is an automatic "love". I happened, one day, to take a gander at the ingredient list on the side of the bread package. The second ingredient: wheat flour. Tell me why someone would have the bright idea to put wheat flour in potato bread? This makes absolutely no sense to me. I told Sally, in a joking way, when she was grocery shopping with me that I felt as if I were being discriminated against in the food arena. I was joking at the time, but now, I'm wondering why everything has to be made with bleached, processed-to-within-an-inch-of-it's-life, white flour, something that any nutritionist would tell you is one of the worst things you could put in your body? Why does nearly everything have to have a wheat-something in it? I can't be the only person who can't digest wheat gluten and is allergic to it. I know I'm not.

God, what a harpie I am today. I suppose I'll just have to learn how to make my own breads and whatnot. *gasp*

Anyway, it's Monday again and a several things are happening today. The first of which is that I'm going to give y'all the treat of checking out these awesome blogs who bid to be my renter this week.

1. Haunted House Dressing
Don't ask what it means. I don't know what it means, but it conjures up some pretty weird images for me of performing Thanksgiving indecencies with a turkey. (Have you ever seen dressing being put inside of a turkey? I personally can't watch it. It causes my eyes to squint and to blink uncontrollably. I feel as if I'm watching something pornographic.) Anyway, this blog is interesting, to say the least.

2. Web Development Mastering Tips
Very informational. Especially for those of us who seemingly can't live without blogging.

3. lilfunky1:a unicycling materialistic minimalist
She is actually my renter on my other blog Humanis Vegetalis so I don't feel so guilty for not pimping her here. She was, by her own admission, "blogging before blogging was cool". Plus she rides a unicycle, man. That's gotta be worth checking out.

4. Cat's Cradle Creations
She's a fellow Southerner, albeit, displaced. Seriously, she's been very kind to me. Go peruse her blog. It has bees on it.

5. A Templar Knight-The Quest Begins
Honestly, I don't really know what to think of this guy. He says that he's a member of the Priory of Scion. I didn't know that organization actually existed outside of Dan Brown's novels, which I love, by the way. Regardless, he seems interesting enough for a good gander, at least. So go, or else he might show up at your blog all armour plated.

EDIT: The Templar Knight emailed me and corrected me on my statement of him being a member of the Priory of Scion. He said that he is not, but that he is a Templar Knight. I emailed him back and asked him just exactly how one becomes a Templar Knight, since I thought that organization had been defunct for several centuries. There could be a rather interesting reply. Just for F.Y.I.: He says he can't "pop 'round" just now because his armour is at the cleaners.

6. StevBlogs.com
This blog seems to be a lot about finding peace-inner and outer I'm guessing.

7. Say No To Crack
Funny that this blog title brings back so many memories. My friends and I used to say that all the time, accompanied by the obligatory showing of the butt crack. Not all of it, mind you, just the top bit a la "plumber's crack". This was a source of great amusement for us. We were easily amused. This blog easily amuses me as well. Plus, the header is a toilet. I love that.

I'm going to put my renter The Screaming Pages an individual post with much pimpage to be had. So be watching for that. Y'all know there's no telling what I might say at any given moment. I'm highly medicated. That's my excuse and I'm stickin' with it. But, now that I think about it, does one really need an excuse to be themselves, whatever that self may be? I'm odd, eccentric; the square-peg-in-a-round-hole person. I could quote something from the Marquis de Sade here about not changing for anyone, but that might come off a bit indecent, considering the source.

I'll also be pimping lilfunky1 on my other blog, to which there is a convenient hot link here. That should be interesting as well. I'll try to be a bit more proper since my other blog deals with more serious things, but I can't promise anything.

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4 Comments:

Blogger Kate said...

Ah, yes, the B&J's threesomes. I know them well. I don't actually have any food allergies, but that doesn't make my flings with them any healthier...

Good luck on getting this all to settle. And soon.

November 20, 2006 3:01 PM  
Anonymous Anita said...

Hey, thanks for the great kudos for my site (Say No to Crack), I'm really glad you like it!

I'm sorry about the Klonopin ... my niece (2 yrs) was on it and it was pretty rough when she came off. Sounds like you'd fit in well with my fam, my grandma had real bad celiac and I seem to have it as well but I don't go to the doc for fear of my insurance going up ... not fun).

November 29, 2006 7:45 PM  
Blogger stev said...

ooo... i'm about peace? never knew that tho... hmm... doesnt look very peaceful currently tho ;)

gluck with the withdrawals

December 05, 2006 10:53 AM  
Blogger Anias Nin said...

Sorry about misinterpreting what your blog was about. When I looked at it that day, and several times in the days after, I chose my renter for that week, it seemed that you had a lot of posts about wanting to find peace for yourself. That's cool. I think everyone should be able to have some peace in their life. That's why I wrote what I did.

The withdrawals are over. Thank God. At least for now. I'm steady on the dosage of Klonopin my therapist wants me on and I don't have the urge to take more than I'm supposed to like I did when I was on the higher dosage.

Thanks.

December 05, 2006 7:15 PM  

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